Sunday, September 2, 2012

Spectator Sport: Ice Skating Rink



  The gleaming, unstained pair of white ice skate shoes caught my innocent, brown eyes. "Size 38, please." I said stutteringly to the shoes keeper, getting all apprehensively excited and nervous to give ice skating another try. It's been quite of a long time after I last landed my feet on the icy surface, and I missed it a lot. Thankfully, the shoes fit me perfectly, and I was ready to glide on a new, beguiling journey.
 As I entered the rink, I can feel the fresh breeze of the cool atmosphere swirling around my hair as if it was about to whisper in my ears, and the gloss of the polished surface welcoming the presence of my petite feet. I slowly glided to the right, then to the left, trying to remain vertically balanced. Tons of people were at the rink, all with different levels of abilities to skate. One small, seven-year-old kid skated adorably that I was so fascinated by him, I gaped at the amazing, flexible tricks he could do. On the right corner of the rink, I could see ice skate mentors (aka professionals) teaching people of different ages how to carefully skate. On the left side of the rink, some lovely love birds, by that I mean couples, were happily ice skating, being all sweet, creating their own space with full of joy and romance. I was enjoying decent views of the rink until…
 Swoosh, swoosh, swoooooosh. An ignoble guy glided speedily from behind, showing his “oh so cool” ice skating ability as if it’s the end of the world. "Whoops, sorry! Didn't mean to make you fall" he said, as he skated across the rink. I nearly fell, and no I didn’t just nearly fell, I tripped, tremendously hard. It hurts. I pacifically got up as if I didn’t feel pain, and I held on to the metallic poles surrounding the rink whenever I feel like falling again. Other than getting all terrified by the thought, though, I was in no doubt, enjoying myself so much. Ah, the smell of ice. That relaxed, calm, and stress free feeling when you can actually feel the soothing smell of the ice. No, not the smell of my, his, her, or your feet that can ruin the thought of how pleasurable it may actually smell like, but the ice. It’s just…comforting, to me.
 Seconds, minutes, an hour passed by. The rink needs to be cleared, and the surface needs to be smoothened. We were asked to leave the rink for a short time, while the big, blue-colored Zamboni is going to clean the ice and make it spotless again. Vroom, vroom, vroom, it cleaned the whole rink. Before we may enter back in, while the surface was still really smooth, professional ice skaters danced and glided on the surface. A beautiful, long-haired lady, impressed me by her elegant presence. Her flamboyant dress was beamingly sparkling, and her pleasant, dazzling moves were gorgeous. She twirled across the rink, perfectly jumped as she spins in the middle, and the spotlight iridescently shined on her. She was, one word: inspirational.
 After the whole, exhausting but terrific experience, the day ended pleasantly, and I was satisfied by the fulfilled desire I used to have.


Ice Skating Rink<3

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Homesick

"We will be moving in 3 months."

A hard, painful, sudden thud hit me, right on the chest. I can't feel my heart beat anymore. It stopped. It literally stops...for a second. All I want to do as soon as I hear those words was to cry. I was so crumpled up with all the sudden emotions, and I kept on questioning people, why?

It's been a year after I moved. I was so happy and jolly, I thought everything was going right, until that day...decisions were made, and all I can do is to nod, fight my feelings, and do what I have to do. I didn't want to move, I have absolutely no idea of how this all new moving thing will look like. "How will it change me, how will my life be, how does the people there look like, will they like me? Will I fit in? What about the people back here? Will things be awkward, will I lose them? What if..." Those thoughts killed me, and my mind went all blurry, terrified to experience this new thing. I only have 3 months to enjoy those last seconds with the loved ones, the closest people in my life; my whole family, my best friends, my dearest class generation....and I did..

After 3 months, as horrifying as reality sounds, I moved..I really moved. Getting to get on with this new journey, it turned out that it is not as scary as I thought it would be. I like it here, people are so friendly, welcoming, kind. I could see smiles here and there, it's safe, I feel comfortable here, and thankfully, I get to meet new friends that accepts me for who I am. This new atmosphere makes me realize that sometimes, we need to experience the new world, not just in where we're familiar of, but outside of it, a completely new world. I learned about the culture, tasted delicious, mouthwatering food, learned a bit of the language. It's interesting, and so far, I'm good with all this.

This whole thing starts to become something usual for me, but sometimes...there are moments where I feel homesick, and all I want to do is to go home. Blame me for being too sentimental at times, but just like what they say, "home is where the heart is." and I guess no other place is better than home. I'm thankful that I still be able to be with both my mom and dad here, but I also miss waking up at my house, my room in which I've slept in for years, going to my school which I have studied at for 9 years, meeting all my best buddies, generation, all that. I miss it, I miss them, I miss everything so much. If only I could turn back time and stop it right there, make the best out of what I have left, enjoy every single moment I spend with them...sigh, I wish I could. 

Fighting with this feeling all along, I captured positive sides from being away from home, though I really miss being back there. I realize that I get to know who will be the ones that stay true to me even in distance, the ones that will always be there and listen to everything I have in mind. Everything, literally. It makes me want to talk to everybody back there every single day, keep in touch with them, and wait for that one day where I return and visit them. And again, I'm thankful that I still have them by my side, though not literally, but I have them to count on. Without them I'm nothing, but as cheesy as it sounds, it's true.

Homesick is a terrible feeling, but I wouldn't mind experiencing this for the better, and to wait until the time comes, where I will really come back home. Until then, I'll try my best to enjoy seconds of this new journey :)

Home is where the heart is.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Greetings!

Why, hello there! Thank you for visiting, and welcome to my blog. This will be the place where I express my feelings, no matter what I'm going through, and it will be where I write, daily. Feel free to comment on any of my posts, even on this very first one, and let's get to know each other if you want to :) I don't write to impress, but I really want to develop my writing skills, and on how I express my feelings.

Until the next post, enjoy!